there are some days that i just can't take it. it's just too much.
i know i should be nice. i know i should just deal with it and let it go. but everything inside me wants to scream. how dare you! i want to yell. leave me alone! you don't deserve my attention! you don't deserve my obedience!
but even as i think of everything i want to say, i know in my heart that it's exactly what satan wants. he doesn't want me to let it go. he tells me over and over that i have the right to be angry and upset. but he's wrong.
and it's the days i start to believe him that i suffer the most.
i'm sorry, God. i'm sorry, dad.