back to school

i have a huge tendency to complain. it's something i've struggled with for most of my life: just ask my mom and dad.
and most of the time, i don't mean anything by it. sometimes, i just don't know what else to say, or maybe i want to start a conversation and our common dislike of a situation seems the easiest option.
as school begins again, our schedules change, our priorities realign, our conversations shift. and as i sat in class and listened and participated in the usual conversations, i realized that it's all we ever do. we're upset at something we've been assigned; annoyed at the busy schedule; aware of a teacher's incompetence; or just plain tired. "did you hear what dr. so and so said?" "can you believe we have to buy that book?" "don't you hate so and so and the way she always has a question?"
i wonder what jesus has to say about us. how annoyed must he be as he sits among us and is dissapointed in our words over and over again?
besides. why do we do it? don't we just want to validate our own issues and feelings? isn't it really just a really prideful and self-righteous exercise? maybe making fun of the teacher will help me fit in, maybe i can hide the fact that i'm scared i won't be able to do it if i make sure everyone knows that i think the expectations are ridiculous.
we're so vain. we're so prideful and selfish. whatever happened to humility and turning the other cheek? why can't i accept the place God has me in and seek to work as unto Him at all times, without whining about things i can't control?

"Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life..." phil.2:14-16

I really do need to work on that.

Love, krystal